Jul. 4th, 2012

Happy Anniversary to me

It's been five years since the day I got hooked on Snarry.  I took an afternoon nap that day, and had a dream in which Harry and Severus were arguing nose to nose, and finally Severus says, ""Harry.  Shut up and kiss me."  Now, believe me when I say that I had NEVER before given conscious thought to such a thing.  And then I woke up, completely confused, and later that day I looked online to see what sort of stories about this very odd couple might be out there, and...well, here we are.  Thanks, witling--your stories were the first significant ones I found, and they grabbed me and still haven't let go.

Apr. 18th, 2012

Re: Tumblr

A question for the flist: how many of you use Tumblr? (And how many of you have a hard time typing it without the "e"?)  I'm considering starting a blog there to post photos from a new wifi-connected camera, but haven't really spent much time on the site and am looking to get the big picture about it quickly.  I would probably use it with a non-fandom-related identity so family and such could look at it.  Any photos that might be relevant to my fandom friends I'd just post here, I guess. 

So: what's your take on Tumblr?  Do you love it?  Hate it?  Follow only certain kinds of things on it?  Any advice would be welcome.  Thanks!

Apr. 16th, 2012

Thought for the day

Life is what happens while you're just trying to get a little writing done.

Mar. 4th, 2012

Mantra for today:

Here's the fact I have to remind myself of more than anything else while I'm writing:

Only I can write THIS story.

I have a terrible time remembering this and staying confident that there's something new, something worth writing (and reading) in what I have to say.  I get all tangled up with this when I'm reading fics that I really like, because I'm always looking for: 1) anything too close to something I have written, am writing, or would like to write, and 2) anything so good that it's easy to immediately respond to it by saying, "Oh, I could never have written that." 

This tendency to worry that "it's already been done" and that further "it's already been done better than I can do it" applies to story elements, plot points, settings, themes, writing style, and even words (that is, basically it applies to everything).  Believe it or not, I obsess to the point of remembering distinctive individual words, and worrying that if I use some unusual word that another writer has used, that everyone who reads my story will recognize this and will think, "Ah, but so-and-so used that word first."

I have to remember that MY story is coming from a place that no one else has access to, namely, the inside of MY head.  If I can look around what's in my head with open eyes, and be true to what I see there, then I will write something that could only have come from me; no complicated machinations are required for this, just that I am open and honest.  The resulting story will will be different from everybody else's, in ways only I could have made it different.  It will need thought and work and no doubt considerable angsting over it to be made coherent enough to show to the world, but it will be something only I could have written, even if (as all fanfic does) it shares characters and words and story elements with lots of other stories.  

Others have written--and will continue to write--about the Pensieve, about hospital bedside vigils, about strange alternate universes, about original characters (whom readers may hate), and God knows lots of people write dance scenes and drinking scenes, but...only I can write about them my way.  I do have something to say that hasn't quite been said before.  And that, in the end, is enough of a reason to keep saying it.

Feb. 26th, 2012

Fic rec

I read a story outside my usual universe the other day, and it has stuck with me in the most devastating way. It's Snape/McGonagall, which though it makes sense to me has never seemed all that interesting.

I may seriously have to rethink this.

At the very least, I will have to keep track of this author, though unfortunately she doesn't seem to do Snarry. So I figure branching out will be good for me.  Sometimes, I have to say, I feel like a real innocent in fandom--I'm sure many of you know all about this story and its author already, and it's just me who's missed the boat so far.

Anyway, the story is this: In the Wee Small Hours of the Morning by Delphi, and it has me scouring the internet for pictures of Dame Maggie Smith around age 40-50.  That may tell you something.

Feb. 19th, 2012

And the mantra for today is:

I've been sort of collecting mantras (words of widsom? snippets of inspiration? clever quips?), with the idea of posting them on days that they seem particularly helpful to me. Mostly they'll be about writing, but this one is good today because we have a new espresso-making-pod-thingy and I'm trying to calculate how to incorporate a couple of shots from it into my already carefully calibrated caffeine consumption (and try saying that three times fast after you've had one shot too many). Too much, and I won't sleep (I've been there and it's Very Bad); too little and the headaches consume me (also Extremely Bad).

I'm hoping that having a few ready mantras to shout at myself will help me when I get frustrated, which usually happens because I take writing (as I take most things, unfortunately) rather too seriously.

Any writing mantras you'd like to share? Comments welcome!

Feb. 7th, 2012

How will you know me?

How will you know me?

By the jewelry that I wear:

I've never worn very much jewelry, and what I do wear is more...totemic, you might say, than ornamental. But you can always tell what's on my mind by the charm I wear on a chain around my neck, and for the past year or so it's been this. I got it from the craft market website Etsy. (The picture shows a ring but I have the same item on a necklace.) I was originally looking for a stylized question mark, but when I realized that the slash symbol was on the same typewriter key...well, that was it, and it's been my symbol ever since. Unfortunately, of all the people in my RL only my husband knows what it actually means. I do still nurse the hope that someday someone will see it and give me a knowing look.

I've always wondered if we couldn't come up with some widely recognized (though only by the right people, of course!) symbol to allow slash fans to identify each other, and I've never seen one I like better than this. What do you think?

Jan. 15th, 2012

Just another Sunday

The pastor at our church talked about Daniel Radcliffe today. I don't know if he'd seen SNL last night (kind of a late show for someone who works on Sunday mornings), but anyway, he was more referring to last week's Parade magazine interview (part of it is here: http://www.parade.com/celebrity/celebrity-parade/2012/01/daniel-radcliffe.html but I don't know if the whole thing is still online). I won't run down all the details, but will just say that though DR stated in the interview that he didn't believe in God, the pastor was trying to show how other statements he made contradicted that. Well, whatever. I was trying not to smirk during the sermon...as I sat there in my blue Ravenclaw choir robe.

(Disclaimer: this is a a very liberal church, I'm even more left-leaning than the church is, and I'm in it mostly for the fun of being in the choir, so nobody's religious beliefs were harmed in the making of this journal post!)

Jan. 2nd, 2012

A gentle resolution...

Happy New Year to...well, to anyone who happens to get this message, wherever you are, whatever journal community you're in, and whenever you run across it!  My New Year's Resolution, which I intend to enforce on myself with gentle determination, is to accept the fact that writing (Snarry now, perhaps someday original fiction) is simply what I do now, with any energy left after family and job are taken care of.  The appeal of Snarry baffles and frustrates me but I don't seem to be able to pull away from it, so I've decided just to give in, and try not to beat myself up over it anymore.  My DH is supportive (and learning that was the most astonishing event of 2011), and I've told my closest RL friend about it and she hasn't disowned me yet, so what else is there to hold me back?

Part of accepting all this is allowing myself to be more immersed in the Snarry community.  I'm not the most sociable person in RL, but lately that's been because I can't talk about what I'm mostly thinking about, which is writing.  So, duh, I should be making more of an effort to connect with the people I can talk writing with, don't you think?  I'm not always comfortable laying out what I'm thinking in a nonfiction format--I much prefer working things into a story, so that they're kind of separated from me by a few layers--but I'm going to try.  Be gentle with me in return, if you can...

I'm going to be posting on DW because it allows cross-posting to IJ and LJ (and forgive my cluelessness if the others allow it and I just couldn't figure it out).  I've tried to consolidate friends there, by adding feeds from IJ and LJ when necessary, and I've tried very hard not to miss anyone.  Please don't hesitate to leave comments, to add me as a friend if you don't know me yet, or to private message me anytime. 

Best wishes to all for a healthy, productive and happy 2012, and I look forward to sharing stories and more with all of you.

Jul. 17th, 2011

FIX IT FEST FIC: A Man Once More

Title: A Man Once More
Author: Cayce Morris
Other pairings: Severus/Lily
Rating: Almost child-friendly; minimal sexual content.
Word count: 3318
Warnings: Het; extremely sub-textual pre-slash.

Other links:
If you prefer to read or download stories in a different format, please see my website at
bit.ly/caycemorris for links to other places you can find this one.

(highlight for spoilers) *In the DH2 movie, Severus does not die in the Shrieking Shack. You wouldn't think that should make much of a difference, but it does.*

“What do you mean?” Severus asked, looking at her in bewilderment. “Am I dead, or aren’t I?”

Author Notes: This story is the first in what will be a series of three. The second story (quite a lot longer than this one) and third story (somewhat shorter than the second one) will carry Severus and Harry through a much larger story arc, showing one possible route their lives might take if Severus is allowed to survive Nagini’s attack.

Those stories, however, are for later. For now, this story is simply meant to right a few wrongs, and to suggest a new way to open a door to the future.

It is dedicated to S., who gave me a dose of encouragement that will last me the rest of my life. S., I hope you can keep the faith, and continue to believe in the very real magic of fanfic.

A Man Once More )

Jul. 12th, 2011

An all-new (?) slash pairing!

I know I don't post much, but this was too funny not to share, and I didn't think it would quite be considered on-topic for the Snarry boards I usually read. It's certainly relevant for slash writers in general, though.  The link is http://xkcd.com/923/

Feb. 9th, 2011

Just in time for Valentine's Day!

Title: Coffeehouse Jazz (Variation II on a Dance Theme)
Author: Cayce Morris
Pairing: Severus/Harry
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: This story depicts a sexual relationship between Severus Snape and Harry Potter, both of whom are over the age of consent.
Word Count: 90,385
Disclaimer: How I wish I owned this stuff. Unfortunately I don't; I'm just having fun. Please don't sue me or tell my children.

Summary: There was a secret message hidden in that little vial that held Snape's memories...or was there?

This story is posted on my website and on An Archive of Our Own

Please take a look if you're a fan of romantic/erotic Snarry. I welcome all comments and reviews.
You can find me on IJ, LJ, DW, AO3 and WTP.

Dec. 15th, 2010

Deathly Hallows Awards

Check out the contest at  the Deathly Hallows Awards, where What You Don't Know has been nominated in the "Fic You Couldn't Stop Reading" category.  And, um, vote for it, if you like!  (Click on "Vote!" in the top menu at the awards site to see the list of nominated fics.) And thanks to the reader who nominated it, whoever you are!

Nov. 22nd, 2010

Title: What You Don't Know
Author: Cayce Morris
Rating: Explicit
Warnings:Hogwarts, 8th year; Harry is 18. No inappropriate contact until after the school year is finished.
Word Count: 47,589
Disclaimer: How I wish I owned this stuff. Unfortunately I don't; I'm just having fun. Please don't sue me or tell my children.

We're often sure we know what's going on.
We're often oh, so very, very wrong.

What You Don't Know

This story is posted on my website, where you can also read Ballad.

Nov. 16th, 2010

I've created a small webpage with links to the stories I've written and the ones I love most to read.  It's a very simple page, and I set it up mainly so I could easily access my favorite stories online from a Kindle (or any mobile device).  I made it for my own use, but I'd love for others to visit and see what they think. 

You can find it at: bit.ly/caycemorris   Please send any comments or suggestions to the email address given on the page itself.

"Ballad" is now posted on An Archive of Our Own:

Title: Ballad: Variation I on a Dance Theme
Author: Cayce Morris
Rating: R
Warnings: An implied sexual relationship between two men, almost none of which you actually see.
Word Count: 7946
Disclaimer: I don't own any of it. I'm just having fun.
Summary: Severus and Harry discover that the last dance can also be a new beginning.

Go to "Ballad" on An Archive of Our Own.

Aug. 6th, 2010

Title: Ballad: Variation I on a Dance Theme
Author: Cayce Morris
Rating: R
Warnings: An implied sexual relationship between two men, almost none of which you actually see.
Word Count: 7946
Disclaimer: I don't own any of it. I'm just having fun.
Summary: Severus and Harry discover that the last dance can also be a new beginning.

Go to "Ballad" on WTP.

Aug. 5th, 2010

This journal will be used to post links to my stories, as well as occasional comments about other things.

You can find my other journal at reallynowriter.